Personality, or lack thereof.

Siblings, mom and I were at the Spectacles shop today. Brother and I were contemplating which pair of spectacles to buy for the new year. Not that we change our specs every year. The current pair we own is scratched beyond imagination and totally worn out.

Anyway, while I was trying on different sets of spectacles, my sister passed a comment that I found very disturbing. She said one of the spectacles "gives you personality". Does that hint at my supposed lack of personality? Or does it mean that it gives me the kind of personality that is preferred to the one that I currently own?

Victor, my boyfriend, has stated many times that I have the mind of a child. That I act and react like a child, the inability to control my mouth, emotions and actions. I often wonder if it's because of mingling with too many kids. Being surrounded by kids, brother included, makes me act like one sometimes. Or maybe it's my over dependence on my mother. After all, I had a maid since I was born up till a few years ago which made me less independent and pretty damn lazy, I admit. Never really had to work for something that I couldn't get just by asking my mother, either nicely or by throwing a tantrum.

But then again, there are several occasions where I've proven to be quite matured. All of which my boyfriend has failed to experience. However, I can't seem to remember any of these occasions off hand. Just a slight inconvenience.

My point is, I believe my personality is what makes me.... me. A pair of specs, no matter how personality changing it may be, may provide a somewhat whimsical side of me but I truly believe that nothing, tangible or otherwise, should change my personality to fit others' requirements/expectations. And seriously, if I had to depend on a damn pair of specs to give me personality, I think it's quite insulting actually.

While my sister's personality is somewhat on a tangent to mine, she's the popular one while I'm the totally awesome one (opinions may differ here), I believe that deep down, we share a common understanding that till our inevitable death, we were born into the same family just to annoy each other while exchanging looks over the dysfunctional yet oddly comforting family situations that occur from time to time.

And rest assured, my new specs are kick ass because I let the family choose and the pair of specs supposedly gives me personality. ;)