My ex-boyfriend, whom i broke up with in March 2011, is getting married in October 2011. Yes, in the same year. I don't know if anyone else sees the joke in this but I seriously feel cheated. Anyway, as much as I would like to act like I'm so over it, I'm totally fucking depressed by it.
The close friends don't get it because they think he was totally useless in the first place. True, but still, love and all. I can't tell the new boyfriend about it because he'll totally misunderstand.
It's not that I have any lingering feelings for the ex. I'm just totally flabbergasted at the audacity of that man.
Moving on, in more than one way, I've noticed that my current relationship has somewhat changed from extraordinary to ordinary. The longest relationship I've had was 2 years, but I'm going to stop saying it was a relationship cos 3/4 of the time the guy was not with me. The next longest relationship was almost a year. 10 months to be exact. and the one following that was what... 3 months?
While people say this means I cannot stay committed to any one guy, I prefer to see it as I know what I want or more appropriately, what I don't want.
Why stay in a relationship for YEARS only to realize that he's totally wrong wrong wrong for you!!! There's no point in having the whole world talk about how awesomely loyal and faithful you are when really, you're just suffering inside.
So, ladies and gentlemen, the world has a ton of things to say about you. What matters is what you say about yourself. I've learned from my mistakes and I've learned from other's mistakes. I promised myself not to be in a position where others will manipulate me. If I do choose to be with someone, it's because he makes me happy for that time. Live in the moment, it's the best experience in the whole world. :)
On a side note, I'm totally going crazy about wedding gowns after I've seen a beautiful gown in IMM. OHHH <3
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